Haven't updated in like freaking ever...maybe switching to a new blog

Maybe switching to a different blog for many different reasons. So this may be one of my last posts. I'm really not sure yet if I can even keep up another blog. As evidenced by this one. I didn't even look at the last time I actually updated this stupid thing.

But I came across a book giveaway contest and had to share it. I read this author's book Shatter Me and it was one of the best books I've ever read.

So here's the contest!

http://stiryourtea.blogspot.com/2012/02/contest-and-winning-and-free-books.html

Copy

I can't be a copy of you
I can't let go of me
I can't fall into that line
And it's you who can't see

It's you who wants perfection
It's me who has to give it
It's you who wants that type of life
It's me who has to live it

You'll never change me
No matter what, you can't
So just accept me
And take me as I am

Here

All these teenagers walking around
And they don't even care
That it's hard to find my place
When I'm underneath their stare

Their voices are so loud
Ringing in my ears
Telling me I'm different
That my place isn't here

I want nothing more
Than to just go home
It's hard in this place
When I feel so all alone

I just want to run away
Run away from here
Anywhere will be okay
As long as they can't see my tears

How can I fit in
When everything I do is wrong?
When will I be happy
When I know I don't belong?

They stare at me
With that look in their eyes
Daring me to say something
Daring me to fight

They're all cardboard cutouts
Waiting for me to break
But I'm standing strong
I don't care how much they hate

Even if if hurts too much
I would rather die
Than to ever, ever
Let them see me cry

I'm Fading, I'm Falling

I feel like we're tearing,
Tearing apart
I feel like you're breaking,
Breaking my heart

I feel like we're deceiving,
Deceiving ourselves
I don't believe in,
Believe in myself

I feel like we're stumbling,
Stumbling around
I feel like we're crumbling,
Crumbling down

I feel like we're losing,
Losing the fight
I feel like we're not holding,
Holding on tight

I feel like I'm fading,
Fading into the dark
I feel like you're making,
Making this too hard

I feel like I'm falling,
Falling alone
I feel like I'm coming,
Coming undone

I feel like you're shattering,
Shattering my world
And it's beyond mattering,
Mattering anymore

The Real You

Your poison fills my veins
As you take me for a ride
It’s driving me insane
I need somewhere to hide

I’m slowly suffocating
In your hands
Still I stand here waiting
For you to understand

I’ve seen the real you
Hidden down so deep
I know what you can do
And the secrets that you keep

You’ve taken all I’ve got
And still it’s not enough
I have to be someone I’m not
Just to earn your love

I should’ve known it all along
But there were things I couldn’t see
If I had known you were so wrong
I never would’ve let you have me